How much is Jesus worth?
As I am in the midst of this challenging, rewarding, incredible time of my life I recognize that I so easily take my eyes off of what the focus should be. I am learning so much lately. About how God works, about how the enemy works. I am more aware than ever of the spiritual battle that goes on around us everyday. Satan is working hard to discourage, distract, and demand my attention so that I forget what I was created to do. It is easy to get caught up in all the negativity that occurs in our lives but God has desires that reach beyond those struggles. He is the light. He is the healer. He is the provider of all.
When I moved to Guatemala and began working in full time ministry I had a lot of expectations. I expected to meet some amazing people and gain many new friends. I expected to learn Spanish fairly quickly. I expected God to provide what I needed because He called me here. I also expected to face some difficulties here and there – and was ready… for some of it. But what I didn’t expect was to be in situations of deep dissension and strife among brothers and sisters in Christ. I didn’t expect to have so much insecurity about the language. I never expected to have such weak faith that I would forget time and time again how faithful God has been to me. What I am seeing more clearly now, though, is that all of these areas are right where the enemy wants to attack. He wants to get our hopes down and he wants us to feel unworthy and unprepared for what life brings us.
a Bible class to a large group of kids from Pre-K – 2nd Grade. Each week I prepare, I write notes, I pray. And each week I am always so disappointed because I know how ugly my Spanish was. How can these kids possibly learn anything when I am so bad? Aren’t I just hindering them? Can’t I just speak English and have a translator? The questions go on and on. And the truth is, I don’t know enough. I never will. But I do know that God has put me in that position for now. While there may be native Spanish speakers that can run circles around me, God put me there so I need to trust that I am the one for that job. The best place on Earth to be is in the will of God.
How much is Jesus worth? – He worth what little bit of embarrassment I face when I get up in front of those kids. He is worth walking away from everything I knew back home and placing my trust in Him. He is worth the pains of being away from family and missing out on all the little get togethers. He is worth the commitment. He is worth the possibility of one day losing my life for Him. He is worth everything.
When you reflect on that question, don’t fail to realize what high regard He holds you in. How much are YOU worth to Him that He followed through with being arrested, beaten brutally, and nailed to a cross and left to die? For YOU. Every lash He absorbed, every pound from the nails being driven into His hands and feet, every unfathomable amount of pain that was inflicted on Him… He took it so you wouldn’t have to. Oh, how valuable you are.
John 15:13 “Greater love has no one than this, that someone lay down his life for his friends.”
Romans 5:8 “But God shows us His love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.”
I pray you recognize how much Christ loves you. How much He desires to have a relationship with you. Seek after Him with with all you heart. He is worth it.